My writings on the wall

فبراير 25th, 2008 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

 
Finally an ARABIC blog where I can express my thoughts and channel my views in
 
At least I’m 80% sure that who’s ever reading this is an Arab or Muslim and even if they didn’t I don’t care I just need this to get some "air"
 
In Saudi Arabia it’s really hard to even "think" views differently
We can’t protest against anything wrong within our community, government and politics
That doesn’t mean we don’t know how to do so it’s just we want to live in peace
 
We know if we objected "they" might darken our feature for the next generation
Or might make our lives a living hell "just like the scientist Galileo" until we deny what we believe in or just work in silence
I’m fid up of people call them selves "Sheik" just because of his appearance, there should be HIGH qualifications for that.
 
I wish we have a sheik who’s from our generation and got exposed to the same things we did and it didn’t effected him then maybe people who are my age might really listen to him since he understand our world, our confusion, our fear, and to guide us to our points of strength and weaknesses in Allah’s’ faith

المزيد


26th birday RUMBLE (i had to do it (^P^) lol

يونيو 25th, 2009 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics, خاص, رأي

 
i got a lot of time on my hands today so i’ll rumble <3

when the clock will pass midnight (japans’ time)


i will 26 on the 26 in month number 6 ( i think satin is liking me for some reason lol)

i think something changed ever since i left my home land about a year and 2 month ago
starting to see everything in a whole different view
it’s hard dealing with change especially when your: alone, a love fool and you never were an independent person before.
also i got used to having so called friends who just shows up cuz they want something from or have an interest in something you know about

it’s ironic when you tell u tell your self that you’ve found God when he was always been there
i was just too blinded to see it
and it’s hard to know who’s a foe and who is a friend and why that everything that started smoothly had a bad end

i learned that i must respect and hear my family opinion (meaning mom dad bro and my wife hell what the rest think or say) since they are the ones i love and always miss the most
i always wonder if wasn’t raised the i am now how would my life would be and would i be a very easy pray to the sin and lust like what i saw some do as code of silence became a must

i am human there for i should admit I’m full mistakes but it’s useless if someone wants more than an apology cuz everyone has a sun of a gun called pride so i won’t swallow it since that person is no longer in my life

i now hate being an emo but glad i had to go trough it for me personally being like that is not wrong unless you felt this all the time . it just makes me feel I’m very weak , hopeless ,negative and alone
and last part for ANY person is not true you are alone is this world god is always with
and after that there is a lot of people who want to help but you have to get get up after moping and reach and reach to them .

i don’t understand some Japanese people that much esp the ones online who said they want international friendship and when you tell them lets meet and they don’t have to come alone they just ignore till forever

it’s reallya nice feeling when you play an Arabic song in your mp3 player each time you miss home lol
\\\\\\\\\\
to the who’s waiting for the most
my fiance and future wife
the mother of unborn children
and the one with gods blessings who spend with me the rest of her life
i miss you like he

المزيد


forgive me

يونيو 13th, 2009 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

 

 

Love me for who I am

Even if I’m not yours
Love me for the beautiful days 
And don’t hate me for our dramatic end 
I don’t regret for what we had 
I do regret for some of the things that I said 
I was scared and upset
And I’ve made a mistake 
I accept all the blame 
And I lied …
Sorry 
Would you forgive me? Please…
I know that betrayed 
Every fault that I made 
The pain that I caused
And all the promises that became lost 
Yes again I lied…
Wish to say to you I loved you at least truly once 
Hold you
Whisper to your ear please forgive me 
I understand if the love was lost
I understand if the feelings became now a compounded hate 
But I hope you can forgive me 
And just love me for who I am 
Love me for who I am 
Even if you erase me 
Sorry
Forgive me 
Please…

المزيد


beautifu

مايو 22nd, 2009 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

Lately I’ve been hard to reach
I’ve been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I’m reaching out for you

I’m just so fuckin’ depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don’t know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I’m in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can’t admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can’t sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I’ll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
Copy
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

Chorus
Walk my shoes, just to see
What it’s like, to be me
All be you, let’s trade shoes
Just to see what I’d be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other’s mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other’s eyes

But don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I’m starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It’s like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that…
I’m not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don’t need fucking man servin’
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain’t even funny like that
Ahh Marshall, you’re so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don’t you all sit down
Listen to the tale I’m about to tell
Hell, we don’t have to trade our shoes
And you don’t have to walk no thousand miles

Chorus
Walk my shoes, just to see
What it’s like, to be me
All be you, let’s trade shoes
Just to see what I’d be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other’s mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other’s eyes

But don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands with doubt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don’t expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I’m placed in
And get up and get

المزيد


love rumble

مايو 14th, 2009 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

it’s11 am and i can’t sleep cuz i miss you so much

till when i have to wait in order to get you back in my arms again

babe we cry, we fight, we shout then get back and lets things work it out

i’m sorry if ya got disappointed that i can’t be the man that you wanted me to be

it’s a big step for me so maybe with in time i can show you the man that i can be

i hope to live to see in a wedding dress

i love you so
i swear i do and to be honest i never thought i would or wouldn’t take a long time to love you

the past is my past and i’m really not looking back ever since you are with me

there’s no one else in this planet i rather be holding hands and growing older with

and don’t worry about how you look cuz you’ll always look sexy in my book

ocean of words is not enough to describe how much I’m into

المزيد


three words for you

أبريل 18th, 2009 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

i cant believe this wish really came true
there so I’m happy to be one next to you
don’t be feel shy, embarsed or ashamed as i write my feelings in words for you
as you are
my love
my life
my wife
and so let the whole world know
how much I’m in love with you
hope I’m yours and you are mine forever
side by side trough joy and pain togethere
hope you know also leaving your hand is a never
as your smile in this crazy world makes me sane
there is no shadow of a doubt that you are my angel that saved me
the spark of light that from darkness will take me
3 words that might be over used but i hope with us its meaning will always be true

I-LOVE-YOU

المزيد


Milk and Cereal

نوفمبر 3rd, 2008 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics


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Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
milk and cereal
Cereal and milk

Milk and Cereal
Cereal, Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk,
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk
Cereal and Milk

I dont want my Wheaties
Give ‘em to the needy
Feeling kinda greedy

I keep em for myself
I keep em for myself
I keep em for myself
I keep em for myself

No Grapenuts for grandma
Mom likes Special K
You cant pinch an inch
You cant pinch an inch
You cant pinch an inch
You cant pinch an inch
You cant pinch an inch
You cant pinch an inch
You cant pinch an inch
They’re magically
delicious
keep ya hands, off my Lucky Charms
(pink
hearts, yellow moons,blue diamonds, green clovers)
A is for Apple
J is for Jack
You step on a crack
You’ll break your mama’s back
Rice Krispies
And Boo Berry
Ooh Boo Berry

Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk

Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk

Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk

Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk

Milk and Stereo
Stereo Stereo
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk
(Cheerio-eo-eo)

In the morning
At your table
Milk and Cereal
Snap Crackle Pop
Snap Crackle Pop
Snap Crackle Pop
Snap Crackle Pop
Snap Crackle Pop
Snap Crackle

المزيد


guilty pleasure

أكتوبر 26th, 2008 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

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look, look me up and down
you would be forgiven if i had a taste
you, see everything. you’re missing now
oh i’d hate to see this moment go to waste

i don’t really care if your not  single
we could use each other just a little
no one has to know if we’re together
come on let me be your guilty pleasure

hide. hide every rule we break
just close your eyes we could be done in record time
no.no is not a word you’ll say
i know you won’t resist the secret kiss of mine

i don’t really care if your not  single
we could use each other just a little
no one has to know if we’re together
come on let me be your guilty pleasure
everything could change in just a minute
but there’s no there’s no body else when were in it
we don’t have to to talk about forever
come on let me be your guilty pleasure

nothing better than the tension killing

المزيد


words of hate FUCK YOU

سبتمبر 27th, 2008 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

 


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ok it’s too hard to not feel sad every time i think of you and it’s really such a bother and a pain that i do

and i know time will heal me but i have no time and i don’t want this hate to go bigger and this grudge goes on forever

so I’ll pour everything in this note and then maybe forget about everything

and i don’t give a damn about what you, your friends or mine say or think of this cuz it has nothing to do with them or you

1rst and last fuck you for acting as nothing happened and none of this is not  your fault in any way or even part of it

i will forget that you made my mother cry and don’t ask what i told her all i said that it was over

cuz we wanted “you “so fuck you if you ever think you are such an angel

fuck you for every tear i shed cuz i was in love with you

fuck telling me to talk to you be e7teram ?!

remember that i didn’t fucked you when i had the chance ya madam

fuck for lying to me, confusing me and for hanging me

المزيد


she

سبتمبر 24th, 2008 كتبها حازم بنجر نشر في , toughts and lyrics

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before i talk about she

i wanna notify that she

could be more than one .two or even there

she is my

world
angel
soul
heart
earth,wind and fire
and all that i desire

she
makes me happy as i can be
makes me ache for her every time she’s far away from me
makes me lough and smile like a child to its mother
makes me feel special like there’s no one other
makes other jealous and being glad that i weren’t their brother

she is

who i wanna marry
who i wanna share my life with
who will make my little family

i hope i will find this she

and we end up happily

and though I’m a sinner i hope she will forgive me

cuz when i will find her

she will be

the apple of m
المزيد


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