خواطر و احلام فتى طائر

i think something changed ever since i left my home land about a year and 2 month ago
starting to see everything in a whole different view
it’s hard dealing with change especially when your: alone, a love fool and you never were an independent person before.
also i got used to having so called friends who just shows up cuz they want something from or have an interest in something you know about

it’s ironic when you tell u tell your self that you’ve found God when he was always been there
i was just too blinded to see it
and it’s hard to know who’s a foe and who is a friend and why that everything that started smoothly had a bad end

i learned that i must respect and hear my family opinion (meaning mom dad bro and my wife hell what the rest think or say) since they are the ones i love and always miss the most
i always wonder if wasn’t raised the i am now how would my life would be and would i be a very easy pray to the sin and lust like what i saw some do as code of silence became a must

i am human there for i should admit I’m full mistakes but it’s useless if someone wants more than an apology cuz everyone has a sun of a gun called pride so i won’t swallow it since that person is no longer in my life

i now hate being an emo but glad i had to go trough it for me personally being like that is not wrong unless you felt this all the time . it just makes me feel I’m very weak , hopeless ,negative and alone
and last part for ANY person is not true you are alone is this world god is always with
and after that there is a lot of people who want to help but you have to get get up after moping and reach and reach to them .

i don’t understand some Japanese people that much esp the ones online who said they want international friendship and when you tell them lets meet and they don’t have to come alone they just ignore till forever

it’s reallya nice feeling when you play an Arabic song in your mp3 player each time you miss home lol
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to the who’s waiting for the most
my fiance and future wife
the mother of unborn children
and the one with gods blessings who spend with me the rest of her life
i miss you like he