mom and dad "rumble letter"

mom,dad,baka anaki and hano-chan

suddenly tears are runin from my eyes without a resoan

it's not cuz i'm alone

or the fact i'm far away from my home

i suddenly remebered

the food table we used gather once a week to after friday praier
i remembered alot of things bakc then

rather with my famliy,members or friends

all the jokes and fights

the yelling

the screaming

the joy

i just suddenly so much

and i just feel sorry for every pain i casued to you over the years
------

dad

i don't say this often but i love you
i know i always hate the the life style you picked right now but i'm sure it came that way as a result of something that was campounded and bared for so long years

i'm sorry for being a trouble maker and for disspointing you in alot of things and from runing away from responbilty and beung depended on you cuz i know i can

i'm trying to be someone and to make something of my self by my self for my self i hope to make you praoud one day and repay you foe the good kindes and care that you have given me so far

my bad habbite that i know i'm always will be your spoiled son

it was hard on me not to cry infront you or anyone else i guess the tears from that event couldn't stay any longer inside of me

i love you so much the stubbern the ignorance the rage
the violence will never ever make me forget how much you truly love me .

to my mom

dr shadia banjar

a name i so am paroud of

you'er my secret idol

even tho we have endles wars and battles that will just end with a truth

thank you for teaching life
for educationg me and supporting me in every way
thank you forcing your baka son to be educated and for inputing the love of knowledge into him

for making me undertsand that knowledge is a never ending education

and a person can achive something by hard work without having it to be a perfection status



for endureing me over the years


for letting me try the wrong if it's case to know the vaule of the right

i know you might tryied so hard to understand me but i know it's kinda of a hoples case since i don't undertsand my self at times

i know you got angry alot from me and no one has a worm and a kind  herat as you

if dad is my herat pls believe me when i say your my soul

love you

----
mom, dad no matter happends

how many times i complaine

argue

fight

having bitter days

in my heart i always love you

and if god grant me to chouse new parents

i could never think of anyone that i want than you

it's  something no matter a person might think they  are bad or harmful

is jusrt are never replaceable