My writings on the wall

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 25 فبراير 2008 الساعة: 00:23 ص

 
Finally an ARABIC blog where I can express my thoughts and channel my views in
 
At least I’m 80% sure that who’s ever reading this is an Arab or Muslim and even if they didn’t I don’t care I just need this to get some "air"
 
In Saudi Arabia it’s really hard to even "think" views differently
We can’t protest against anything wrong within our community, government and politics
That doesn’t mean we don’t know how to do so it’s just we want to live in peace
 
We know if we objected "they" might darken our feature for the next generation
Or might make our lives a living hell "just like the scientist Galileo" until we deny what we believe in or just work in silence
I’m fid up of people call them selves "Sheik" just because of his appearance, there should be HIGH qualifications for that.
 
I wish we have a sheik who’s from our generation and got exposed to the same things we did and it didn’t effected him then maybe people who are my age might really listen to him since he understand our world, our confusion, our fear, and to guide us to our points of strength and weaknesses in Allah’s’ faith

المزيد

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26th birday RUMBLE (i had to do it (^P^) lol

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 25 يونيو 2009 الساعة: 12:46 م

 
i got a lot of time on my hands today so i’ll rumble <3

when the clock will pass midnight (japans’ time)


i will 26 on the 26 in month number 6 ( i think satin is liking me for some reason lol)

i think something changed ever since i left my home land about a year and 2 month ago
starting to see everything in a whole different view
it’s hard dealing with change especially when your: alone, a love fool and you never were an independent person before.
also i got used to having so called friends who just shows up cuz they want something from or have an interest in something you know about

it’s ironic when you tell u tell your self that you’ve found God when he was always been there
i was just too blinded to see it
and it’s hard to know who’s a foe and who is a friend and why that everything that started smoothly had a bad end

i learned that i must respect and hear my family opinion (meaning mom dad bro and my wife hell what the rest think or say) since they are the ones i love and always miss the most
i always wonder if wasn’t raised the i am now how would my life would be and would i be a very easy pray to the sin and lust like what i saw some do as code of silence became a must

i am human there for i should admit I’m full mistakes but it’s useless if someone wants more than an apology cuz everyone has a sun of a gun called pride so i won’t swallow it since that person is no longer in my life

i now hate being an emo but glad i had to go trough it for me personally being like that is not wrong unless you felt this all the time . it just makes me feel I’m very weak , hopeless ,negative and alone
and last part for ANY person is not true you are alone is this world god is always with
and after that there is a lot of people who want to help but you have to get get up after moping and reach and reach to them .

i don’t understand some Japanese people that much esp the ones online who said they want international friendship and when you tell them lets meet and they don’t have to come alone they just ignore till forever

it’s reallya nice feeling when you play an Arabic song in your mp3 player each time you miss home lol
\\\\\\\\\\
to the who’s waiting for the most
my fiance and future wife
the mother of unborn children
and the one with gods blessings who spend with me the rest of her life
i miss you like he

المزيد

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forgive me

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 13 يونيو 2009 الساعة: 17:28 م

 

 

Love me for who I am

Even if I’m not yours
Love me for the beautiful days 
And don’t hate me for our dramatic end 
I don’t regret for what we had 
I do regret for some of the things that I said 
I was scared and upset
And I’ve made a mistake 
I accept all the blame 
And I lied …
Sorry 
Would you forgive me? Please…
I know that betrayed 
Every fault that I made 
The pain that I caused
And all the promises that became lost 
Yes again I lied…
Wish to say to you I loved you at least truly once 
Hold you
Whisper to your ear please forgive me 
I understand if the love was lost
I understand if the feelings became now a compounded hate 
But I hope you can forgive me 
And just love me for who I am 
Love me for who I am 
Even if you erase me 
Sorry
Forgive me 
Please…

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beautifu

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 22 مايو 2009 الساعة: 14:44 م

Lately I’ve been hard to reach
I’ve been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I’m reaching out for you

I’m just so fuckin’ depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don’t know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I’m in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can’t admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can’t sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I’ll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
Copy
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

Chorus
Walk my shoes, just to see
What it’s like, to be me
All be you, let’s trade shoes
Just to see what I’d be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other’s mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other’s eyes

But don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I’m starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It’s like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that…
I’m not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don’t need fucking man servin’
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain’t even funny like that
Ahh Marshall, you’re so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don’t you all sit down
Listen to the tale I’m about to tell
Hell, we don’t have to trade our shoes
And you don’t have to walk no thousand miles

Chorus
Walk my shoes, just to see
What it’s like, to be me
All be you, let’s trade shoes
Just to see what I’d be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other’s mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other’s eyes

But don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands with doubt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don’t expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I’m placed in
And get up and get

المزيد

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love rumble

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 14 مايو 2009 الساعة: 04:24 ص

it’s11 am and i can’t sleep cuz i miss you so much

till when i have to wait in order to get you back in my arms again

babe we cry, we fight, we shout then get back and lets things work it out

i’m sorry if ya got disappointed that i can’t be the man that you wanted me to be

it’s a big step for me so maybe with in time i can show you the man that i can be

i hope to live to see in a wedding dress

i love you so
i swear i do and to be honest i never thought i would or wouldn’t take a long time to love you

the past is my past and i’m really not looking back ever since you are with me

there’s no one else in this planet i rather be holding hands and growing older with

and don’t worry about how you look cuz you’ll always look sexy in my book

ocean of words is not enough to describe how much I’m into

المزيد

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three words for you

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 18 أبريل 2009 الساعة: 14:25 م

i cant believe this wish really came true
there so I’m happy to be one next to you
don’t be feel shy, embarsed or ashamed as i write my feelings in words for you
as you are
my love
my life
my wife
and so let the whole world know
how much I’m in love with you
hope I’m yours and you are mine forever
side by side trough joy and pain togethere
hope you know also leaving your hand is a never
as your smile in this crazy world makes me sane
there is no shadow of a doubt that you are my angel that saved me
the spark of light that from darkness will take me
3 words that might be over used but i hope with us its meaning will always be true

I-LOVE-YOU

المزيد

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blink of an eye

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 31 يناير 2009 الساعة: 06:35 ص

in a blink of an eye
i lost almost everything
the girl i wanted to marry
close friends
money
health
family members
things that took me years and years to build
has just gone away with the wind

you can reach the top with hard work and a life cycle spent
but just in a blink you find your self even under from where you started

in a blink of an eye

my life got messed up
my joy turned into tears
my dream became a nightmare
and everything crumbled as the clock of time gose on

i wish i could get back seeing my blood gush out so i could feel calm and ok

but now i believe in the change of season and everything happens for a reason

but n way i’m turning back to the old bad habit of mine as God is with me so i know i’m not alone
المزيد

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to my ma-ma

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 17 يناير 2009 الساعة: 23:00 م

i’m not looking for a public glory but you have to know writing this isn’t easy

remember i came from a house that has hard times how express their emotions in a right

so just be patient and read or listen to what i wrote or say

——

123223

dear mama there’s so much to say i don’t know from where to begin to express that i have with in

you are driving force in my life you were always there for me in my ups downs

you were understanding even to things that couldn’t be logical to others

you diffidently not like other mothers

i had the freedom to speak even tho you have the power not to

you allowed to get exposed to everything and explane to me the goods and bads after

and even if we argue (have beef) and you show a true anger and show me hell

you come next day and hug me and it becomes history

you always there any time i was down or my skin was pale

you showed how my faith could grow and how the sins can be harmful to my soul

i hated when i see you tear drops from your tired eyes because of me it hurts too much

so i’m deeply sorry to involve you in messed up fucked up life called drama

from a M student to an English graduate and PHD after 2 years or so after being away i always wonder how do you did it ?!!

i looked up to yoالمزيد

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i'm yours

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 17 يناير 2009 الساعة: 10:31 ص

I’m Yours Lyrics
Artist(Band):Jason Mraz

123218

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I’ll be giving it my bestest
And nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We’re just one big family
And It’s our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the g

المزيد

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دعاء نهاية العام و بدايـته

كتبها حازم بنجر ، في 27 ديسمبر 2008 الساعة: 17:03 م




  دعاء نهاية العام ,.,


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم وصلى الله على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه اجمعين اللهم ما عملت من عمل في السنة

الماضيه ولم ترضه ونسيته’ ولم تنسه وحملت عني مع قدرتك على عقوبتي ودعوتني الى التوبه بعد جراءتي عليك,

اللهم إني أستغرك منه فاغفرلي .اللهم وما عملت من عمل ترضاه و وعدتني عليه الثواب والغفران فتقبله مني , ولا

تقطع رجائي منك ياكريم يا أرحم الراحمين, وصلى الله تعالى على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم,.,

123039
 

 دعاء بداية العام,.,

المزيد

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