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i saw this while browsing my photo albums : dear mom I am 26, going to be a father soon(be2zn Allah) and will have a new life yet sometimes i feel greedy and feel that i still need you in it. years are running so fast and i just still think my thank yous are not enough to the things you went trough with me in order to be who i am
i am sorry for the fact that i love dad more but it just how it is
i am really grateful for always helping and giving advices that i either need it my present or future
because of you , you made me dream bigger , seek dreams that everyone told me it is hard to achieve
when nothing is impossible as long we try hard & pray to god and and seek his help
because and how you raised i was loved by many where ever i go
you will forever will be my uncrowned queen i miss you much and you are always in my heart and thoughts even if we are out of touch
and i hope you see me BIG someday sooner or later and this child of yours makes you proud
we fight we argue we shout and do maybe worse
but that is all fine and can be endured if it means to still have your love , respect in my life
just spending time with talking about anything makes me feel that going back home is always worth it to just be by you and dads side
i love it when we joke or tease dad
God i love anything with you and your family
and when its getting hard to breath one call to you makes me so refreshed and full of O2
and all all
shokran laki 3asan benorek wo fadlek wo da3watek dayman tet7asan a5lagi tetsahal 7ayati
love you mom
you know i always tell you that sometimes a song can express what i c
hello my princess last time i talked to you felt forever
i believed i would see very soon
but the one who i loved left and for a moment i thought i lost someone close to my heart and my dreams of having you had fallin a part but it’s ok i guess cuz it turned out she never loved me or maybe pretended to be so i know that we didn’t meant to be but doesn’t matter cuz she means nothing to me
your foolish father is trying to go on but at times it just seams so hard
since i have a recored of a bad statues and what other may say of my black past i wonder if i have even the right of wanting to have something pure like you
if you are wondering why the wait is cuz i’m still looking for that special someone
that makes wanna end my single life with all it good and bads and start a new one
and cuz there’s no meaning of a family without a good mother
and i’m hoping yours is like no one other
i know its silly but i day dream of you and i see my self jumping high and walkin on the moon
shouting to every one it’s a daughter and not a son
yet at times i feel i should give up on having you
cuz of life,love,money and other things it makes it too hard to be true
but only God knows how much i wish you for you to be here
to gaze at you with all the love in your eyes
to catch a gleams at my little paradise
and see take your 1rst breath of life
see and hear you sparkling tear and your crying voice pronouncing your coming to my world
to give you every falling star in this whole universe and everything beautiful on haven or earth if i could
death is always upon us so every once a day i pray to God for forgiven
.
people come & people go
i lost so much already so i know
some passed away
some got lost in life
some got pissed off or just went away
with no wards to say and
and some i always wonder where are they now
but rather it hurts or not
it’s all good, it’s alright
cuz there will always be a sun rise after the end of the night
everything changes from time to time
happy or sad
good or bad
everyone changes so there’s no reason to get mad
people come and people go
رجع أمين محافظة جدة المهندس عادل فقيه ما حدث في جدة من أضرار خلفتها أمطار الأربعاء الماضي إلى ارتفاع منسوب المياه بشكل غير مسبوق. وربط ذلك بمخططات وتعديات وقعت على مصارف الأودية وأعاقت حركة السيول الطبيعية ووجهتها نحو المدينة. واستبعد في حوار سريع مع «عكاظ» فرضية انهيار السد الاحترازي الترابي لبحيرة الصرف الصحي المعروفة بـ «المسك»، مشيرا إلى أن الأمانة تحركت لمنع الصب في البحيرة، وأن هناك فرقا ولجانا للطوارئ تواصل عملها الميداني على مدار الساعة للتعامل مع تداعيات الأمطار والسيول الأخيرة. وذهب فقيه إلى أن جدة لم تحظ خلال العقود الماضية بخدمات بنية تحتية ملائمة، مؤكدا حاجتها إلى مليارات الريالات لتنفيذ
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شي محزن صراحة كيف رجل اعمال محترم يتحول الى آلة صرافة ايداع
سواء كان امين الحالي او السابق الي حيحضعو الى الى القضاء عاجلا ام اجلا
المضحك المبكي ان الأمين الحالي اعترف ان 70 في المائة من جدة لا يوجد لها صرف صحي
و ان ال30 الباقية يعملون علمليها اي انها تحت التنفيذ باختصار لم ينتهي بعد
اين الأموال ذهبت اذا؟
كل مرة الأمانة تقول المشروع يكلف مليارات و الدولة تدفع و وما النتيجة؟
مشهد نراه كل عام
كم مرة امين الجدة الحالي او السابق قالو انهم يحتاجون الى مليارات و الدوالةلم تقصر
ولماذا دائما الأمانة تحل المشكلة مؤقتا ام انها تريده مؤقت لكي تستفيد من الأموال لأغراض شخصية على المدى الطويل
المدينة تغرق و الأمين يقول نحن ندرس الموضوع
اين تصريف السيول اين مركز الارصاد و ما فائدته اذا لا يستطيع انذار المواطنين
لما>ا دائما الدوائر الحكومية تجعل المواطن يجري له حتى في مصيبة كهذه
كمرا
when the clock will pass midnight (japans’ time)
i think something changed ever since i left my home land about a year and 2 month ago
starting to see everything in a whole different view
it’s hard dealing with change especially when your: alone, a love fool and you never were an independent person before.
also i got used to having so called friends who just shows up cuz they want something from or have an interest in something you know about
it’s ironic when you tell u tell your self that you’ve found God when he was always been there
i was just too blinded to see it
and it’s hard to know who’s a foe and who is a friend and why that everything that started smoothly had a bad end
i learned that i must respect and hear my family opinion (meaning mom dad bro and my wife hell what the rest think or say) since they are the ones i love and always miss the most
i always wonder if wasn’t raised the i am now how would my life would be and would i be a very easy pray to the sin and lust like what i saw some do as code of silence became a must
i am human there for i should admit I’m full mistakes but it’s useless if someone wants more than an apology cuz everyone has a sun of a gun called pride so i won’t swallow it since that person is no longer in my life
i now hate being an emo but glad i had to go trough it for me personally being like that is not wrong unless you felt this all the time . it just makes me feel I’m very weak , hopeless ,negative and alone
and last part for ANY person is not true you are alone is this world god is always with
and after that there is a lot of people who want to help but you have to get get up after moping and reach and reach to them .
i don’t understand some Japanese people that much esp the ones online who said they want international friendship and when you tell them lets meet and they don’t have to come alone they just ignore till forever
it’s reallya nice feeling when you play an Arabic song in your mp3 player each time you miss home lol
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to the who’s waiting for the most
my fiance and future wife
the mother of unborn children
and the one with gods blessings who spend with me the rest of her life
i miss you like he
Love me for who I am
Even if I’m not yours
Love me for the beautiful days
And don’t hate me for our dramatic end
I don’t regret for what we had
I do regret for some of the things that I said
I was scared and upset
And I’ve made a mistake
I accept all the blame
And I lied …
Sorry
Would you forgive me? Please…
I know that betrayed
Every fault that I made
The pain that I caused
And all the promises that became lost
Yes again I lied…
Wish to say to you I loved you at least truly once
Hold you
Whisper to your ear please forgive me
I understand if the love was lost
I understand if the feelings became now a compounded hate
But I hope you can forgive me
And just love me for who I am
Love me for who I am
Even if you erase me
Sorry
Forgive me
Please…
Lately I’ve been hard to reach
I’ve been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I’m reaching out for you
I’m just so fuckin’ depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don’t know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I’m in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can’t admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can’t sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I’ll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
Copy
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles
Chorus
Walk my shoes, just to see
What it’s like, to be me
All be you, let’s trade shoes
Just to see what I’d be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other’s mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other’s eyes
But don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you
I think I’m starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It’s like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that…
I’m not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don’t need fucking man servin’
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain’t even funny like that
Ahh Marshall, you’re so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don’t you all sit down
Listen to the tale I’m about to tell
Hell, we don’t have to trade our shoes
And you don’t have to walk no thousand miles
Chorus
Walk my shoes, just to see
What it’s like, to be me
All be you, let’s trade shoes
Just to see what I’d be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other’s mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other’s eyes
But don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don’t let ‘em say you ain’t beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands with doubt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don’t expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I’m placed in
And get up and get
till when i have to wait in order to get you back in my arms again
babe we cry, we fight, we shout then get back and lets things work it out
i’m sorry if ya got disappointed that i can’t be the man that you wanted me to be
it’s a big step for me so maybe with in time i can show you the man that i can be
i hope to live to see in a wedding dress
i love you so
i swear i do and to be honest i never thought i would or wouldn’t take a long time to love you
the past is my past and i’m really not looking back ever since you are with me
there’s no one else in this planet i rather be holding hands and growing older with
and don’t worry about how you look cuz you’ll always look sexy in my book
ocean of words is not enough to describe how much I’m into











